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I don’t want to be alone with my own thoughts
So much is happening and I feel like i’ll fall apart
if I let them speak,
I watch television on the internet to drown them out
I bear witness to my own gluttony:
netlix, amazon, hulu…which I cancel periodically
pretending i wont start them again
I make a therapy appointment for wednesday,
this makes me feel better
I feel like i’m going to be sick
physically ill
I need a distraction
to distract and be distracted
to give and take until this thing works itself out
until I figure myself out
I need to remember that this isn’t an answer
only a piece of an ever evolving puzzle
which shifts itself constantly;
knowing i can’t keep up
doesn’t keep me from trying
I love this!!! So relatable. 🌸